Saturday, December 22, 2012

Stealing the Joy of the Journey

Once upon a time, people decided that the best time to get engaged is right between the turkey feast in November and giant crystal ball dropping in NYC.  As tradition continues, one after another, my friends are getting engaged.  Don't get me wrong, I am SO happy for all them ... but some days I can't help but feel left behind.

In high school, I refused to date because I wanted to date to marry.  I'd joke with my three sisters (two of which are older than me) that I would be the the first one to get married, but for the most part, I was hoping more than joking. While some girls want the big wedding day, I just wanted to be married.  I've had this desire in my heart for as long as I can remember: to be married and be a mom.

Since high school, I have been in three relationships. Following decisions to go our own ways, they each ended up getting engaged to their next girlfriend. (One of my good guy friends joked the other day that he should date me so her can meet his future wife sooner.)  Please don't get me wrong; I AM happy for them.  I'm glad they found women they want to spend forever with, but seeing my ex-boyfriends all engaged right now is HARD

It makes me question where I am, why we ended things and what's wrong with me.

 

And comparing ourselves to others is never a good idea.




The very first murder came from comparison.


(Genesis 4: 2b-5, 8)

"Now Abel kept flocks, and Cain worked the soil.  In the course of time Cain brought some of the fruits of the soil as an offering to the Lord.  But Abel bought fat portions from some of the firstborn of his flock.  The Lord looked with favor on Abel and his offering, but on Cain and his offering he did not look with favor. So Cain was very angry, and his face was downcast. (...) Now Cain said to his brother Abel, "Let's go out to the field."  And while they were in the field, Cain  attacked his brother Abel and killed him.

And remember the story of Joseph and the coat of many colors?

(Genesis Chapter 37:3)

"Now Israel loved Joseph more than any of his other sons, because he had been born to him in his old age; and he made a richly ornamented robe for him."

As the story continues, Joseph's brothers plot to kill him and eventually sell Joseph into slavery because of their jealousy.

It's a simple pattern that has repeated itself all through history and continues today.

Comparison leads to Discontent,

Discontent leads to Jealousy

And Jealousy can lead to Sin.


I can't help but believe that that's why God wants us to stop at the first step, comparison, so we don't get caught in the slippery slope.

Let everyone be sure that he is doing his very best, for then he will have the personal satisfaction of work well done and won't need to compare himself with someone else.     (Galatians 6:4)


Jesus was not married and had no children to call him daddy, and yet he loved better than anyone else.  Mother Teresa was not married and never gave birth to a child of her own, and yet she impacted and loved so many people. 

I want to love people better. 

I want to make an impact.

And I want to be married and have children...If that's where God leads me in the future.

Right now though, I am not in a season of engagement. Right now I am in a season of change and travel. After graduation in May, I will be leaving the country in mid June to be an IFYE ambassador to Europe.  I don't know where I'm going to stay yet or who I'm going to meet, but I know that this is where I'm supposed to be headed. 

This is my path.  It may not look like my friends. It may lead to years of singleness.  It may end up being lonely at times, but I will be patient and I will wait because God's got a plan that is much better for me than the fairytale I've created in my head.

I will WAIT and strive to be content with my relationship status, for there is a time for everything.  I will wait, but not on God to show up. I will wait with God, for God's perfect timing.



Psalm 130:5-6

 

I wait for the Lord, my soul waits,

and in his word I put my hope.

My soul waits for the Lord

more than watchmen wait for the morning,

more than watchmen wait for the morning.

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Remembering Self Care

Romans 12:12

Rejoice in hope, Be patient in tribulation, Be constant in prayer.


Today my dear friend, Jamie Utt, reminded me of the importance of taking care of myself. Sometimes I get so wrapped up in life and the hurts of others, that I struggle with self care.... and maybe a little more often than sometimes. I can spin into self destruct mode without even noticing it.


As part of one of his advocate classes, he was instructed to make a self care plan. I've really never put a lot of thought into this before, but I think it's a great idea!

As I head into my final semester and a season of travel, here are a few things off the running list of things I can do to take care of my self;

  • Listen to worship music, Aaron Watson or some good oldies
  • Read some from The Ultimate Love Letter
  • Massage the base of my neck, my hands or my feet
  • Sit on the floor in the kitchen
  • Cuddle with a puppy
  • Serving others (in a non-stressful way)
  • Take a nap
  • Sing
  • Write from the heart on one of my blogs
  • Knit or Crochet.... even if the end goal is to have something to pull out
  • Go get nasty sweaty at the gym
  • Sit at a piano and wander across the keys
  • Drink some tea
  • Give things away
  • Bake!
  • Write a letter to someone I haven't talked to in a while
  • Make a list of blessings/thankfulness
  • Paint a canvas
  • Go for a prayer walk
  • Pop in a musical
  • Take pretty pictures
  • Have some quiet time or even a half day for a God Date
  • Journal
  • Watch the Free Hug video on YouTube
  • Sink into a Bubble Bath in a room full of candles
  • Hangout with some of my favorite kiddos
  • Make kool aid Popsicles in an ice tray
  • Call up one of my sisters, parents, adopted parents, church mates, or Brandon
  • Doodle and make random lists
  • Go do some target shooting
  • Do something crafty
  • Read through some old journals to remember how far I've come
  • Watch Jeopardy, Friends, Boy Meets World, or Wishbone
  • Pull the hair out of the drain, blow out a keyboard or one of my other weird cleaning delights
  • Look at things in my "happy times" box
  • Have a mini dance party
  • Make weird sounds into the face of a fan (if you haven't talked into a fan before, you really should)
  • Braid my hair
  • Curly up with a fluffy blanket
  • Peruse through the photos on my hard drive
  • Cry in the shower
  • Laugh
  • Chew a large wad of gum and practice blowing really big bubbles
  • Rub my ear lobes (like what they did on Runaway Bride.... it really does work!)
  • Go for a hike
  • Practice Gleeking
  • Sing in the shower
  • Go smell pretty flowers

For me..... these things make me happy, remind me what's important, make a me feel like a kid again and bring me back to place of contentment.  What's on your list?

Sunday, August 19, 2012

A Generous Life and a Pile of Stones


Sometimes I feel such a “screw-up”. I’ve made my fair share of mistakes and then some it seems.

The other day, I was talking to a friend that felt the same way and it reminded me of this story in the bible....



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The teachers of the law and the Pharisees brought in a woman caught in adultery. They made her stand before the group and said to Jesus, “Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?” They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him.
But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground.

At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there. Jesus straightened up and asked her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?

“No one, sir,” she said.
Then neither do I condemn you,” Jesus declared. “Go now and leave your life of sin.

(Found in John Chapter 8)
______________________



When I look back on different situations, I know I've been on both sides of the pile of rocks. I have been the one holding the stone, full of pride and judgment, wanting God to say it's okay for me to punish someone else.


I have also been the one who crumbles in fear as I wait to see what others are going to do to me because I messed up. I've tried to run and hide from God multiple times because my guilt makes me feel so ugly and so unworthy that I don't even want him to see my mess.


But this guilt is not from God. Guilt, feeling as though your worth has decreased because of something you've done, is the devils tool. He uses it to bring people to a place where they feel so unworthy to be with God that they distance themselves from him. The devil knows that God will never leave us, but he wants us to feel like we can't talk to Abba Father, that Daddy God is shunning us. When we choose to try to distance ourselves from God, the devil has more space to creep in and attack.

John 10:10 describes the devil as "the thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy". He's lurking there, just waiting for a chance to steal our peace, our joy, and our worth. Like a pick-pocket, the thief removes theses pieces, sometimes without us even knowing it was him, but instead we blame ourselves for not having them anymore.

For the next thirty days, Pastor Chris has challenged Citipointe Fort Collins to say yes to living a life of generosity, giving everytime there is a physical, spiritual, emotional or financial need because that is what the church, the body of Christ, should be doing. It's going to be amazing and life changing without a doubt. That's why I'm in.

But this morning, I think I caught a glimpse of something else God wants us to do. He wants us to be generous with our grace and forgiveness with everyone, including the person we see in the mirror. We have to stop condemning ourselves and others and giving the devil this foothold because we are angry (Ephesians 4:26-27).

So live generously. Give your time, your talent and your treasure. Love on people, forgive them, and flood the world with grace.

You are not condemned; YOU ARE LOVED. You are not chained to what you've done, are doing or will do; the cross paid for that, in full, FOR-EV-ER.

Sunday, July 22, 2012

But I don't wanna..........

Friday morning my heart broke when I heard the news. 12 people killed and over 50 people wounded at a midnight premier of the new Batman movie in Aurora, CO. It consumed my thoughts, broke my heart and built my anger as I read and listened to the stories coming from the media. How could this be happening, again? Columbine, Fort Hood, Virginia Tech, Oklahoma City, the World Trade Center, Norway, London, Mumbai.... and those are just the ones that come to my mind the quickest. This vicious pattern just keeps rolling through history. But what can I do except for pray for the victims, their families and friends that are left with a gaping hole and communities that once again are being asked to rise and stand when they want to crumble in fear and grief?

Walking in to Citipointe Fort Collins yesterday, I could tell that so many others were being troubled with the same feeling of helplessness. It was like our hearts were yelling, "give me something to do!".... and Pastor Chris did.



As he started off with prayer to begin the sermon Honor (part 2), In Your Face, I expected him to pray for the victims, the family and friends, those still in the hospital, the law enforcement and medical staff that were handling this tragedy... and he did. What I didn't expect though was for him to pray for and honor James Holmes, the man who went into the theater and fired off round after round at movie goers less than 48 hours before. Chris honored him with disregard for his actions.

In my mind I thought “Whoa Whoa Whoa Pastor Chris! Don't you know what this guy just did? How can you honor who he is and forgive him so quickly?” My head and my heart couldn't grasp the concept immediately, but he was speaking truth. Check out my internal conflict below......

Me: But I don't want to pray for him........
Matthew 5:43-47
You have heard that is was said, "Love your neighbor and hate your enemy." But I tell you; Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? (From Jesus)

Me: But he killed someone........
Matthew 5:22
You have heard that is was said to the people long ago, "Do not murder, and anyone who murders will be subject to judgment." But I tell you that anyone who is angry with his brother will be subject to judgment. (From Jesus)

Me: But he didn't just kill one person.....
Matthew 18:21
Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?'
Jesus answered, "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy times seven."

Me: But can't I just hold on to this a little longer.....
Ecclesiastes 5:4
When you make a vow to God, do not delay in fulfilling it. He has no pleasure in fools; fulfill your vow.
Ephesians 4: 26, 31
In your anger do not sin; Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold. Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

Me: But do we really have to honor who he is....
1 Peter 2:17
Honor all people, love the brotherhood, fear God, honor the king.

Me: But if Pastor Chris is honoring him, do I still have to.....
Romans 12: 10
Love one another with brotherly affection. Outdo one another in showing honor.

Honoring means to value, respect, highly esteem, to treat as precious, weighty or valuable.

God honors us in our hot mess....
Psalm 91:14-16
“Because he loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and HONOR him.


It doesn’t mean that what we do is honorable, BUT who we are, a children of God, created in his own image, should ALWAYS be honored and be honoring others. We are commanded to treat everyone with honor because God says they are precious.

Honor.... it's kinda a huge deal.



Friday, July 6, 2012

Shackled to Surrender

Age of the Kings - North Point Community Church

I love the messages at North Point Community Church, hence why I found myself listening to two of their online sermons today. If you want to check them out for yourself, you can find the sermon series "Age of Kings" here! Here's where my heart led after watching Part One - Resistance is Futile. (This was not the same direction Andy Stanley took, so feel free to check them both out!)

Every time I hear someone preach about the bible, I get more excited about it. I know that it's living and moving, but today I learned more about how powerful the history side of it can be. Andy Stanley explained that history buffs should love the bible, especially 1-2 Samuel, Kings and Chronicles. Call me slow, but I didn't realize that these three books were talking about the same time period through different perspectives. As Andy explained though, these 6 books tell the story of the Kings of Israel and provide insight into our own hearts.

In 1 Samuel, you start to see history unravel when the people of Israel go to Samuel, and ask for a king. Up until this point, they had no king ruling over all of Israel. They instead followed (or attempted to follow) the commandments and God was their king, but 8:4 says that the people same to Samuel and said "You are old, and your sons do not walk in your ways; now appoint a king to lead us, such as all the other nations have." This broke Samuel’s heart. Everybody else had a king, and they wanted to be like everybody else, even though they were favored.

So Samuel went to God and this is what he heard:

“Listen to all that the people are saying to you; it is not you they have rejected, but they have rejected me as their king. 8 As they have done from the day I brought them up out of Egypt until this day, forsaking me and serving other gods, so they are doing to you. 9 Now listen to them; but warn them solemnly and let them know what the king who will reign over them will claim as his rights.”
(1 Samuel 8:7-9)

When he went back to the group and told them

“This is what the king who will reign over you will claim as his rights: He will take your sons and make them serve with his chariots and horses, and they will run in front of his chariots. 12 Some he will assign to be commanders of thousands and commanders of fifties, and others to plow his ground and reap his harvest, and still others to make weapons of war and equipment for his chariots. 13 He will take your daughters to be perfumers and cooks and bakers. 14 He will take the best of your fields and vineyards and olive groves and give them to his attendants. 15 He will take a tenth of your grain and of your vintage and give it to his officials and attendants. 16 Your male and female servants and the best of your cattle and donkeys he will take for his own use. 17 He will take a tenth of your flocks, and you yourselves will become his slaves. 18 When that day comes, you will cry out for relief from the king you have chosen, but the Lord will not answer you in that day.”
(1 Samuel 8:11-18)

Wow. Why would anyone choose to be ruled by a dictator? Especially those who had been ruled before. These were the decedents of the people that had been led out of Egypt and slavery under pharaoh, and yet, they wanted a human king to rule over them.

19 But the people refused to listen to Samuel. “No!” they said. “We want a king over us. 20 Then we will be like all the other nations, with a king to lead us and to go out before us and fight our battles.” 21 When Samuel heard all that the people said, he repeated it before the Lord. 22 The Lord answered, “Listen to them and give them a king.”
(1 Samuel 8:19-22)

Looking back now, it's easy to say "Wow. That was a dumb move." Why would anyone ever want to make an imperfect man king?... especially when they have a perfect God who knows them so deeply that they can't understand the lengths He's willing to go to in order to bring the best to His children who desires to be the king of their lives? Yes, Samuel anointed Saul as king and the chain of command was passed down from Saul to David to Solomon and without them we would not have Psalms, Proverbs and The Song of Songs, but each of these men fell short of the glory of God because they were human. After the reign of Solomon, the kingdom split and continued to crumble.

But isn't this an example of what we're doing right now?

Think about what your heart. Where do you spend your time, your talent and your treasures? If your heart is the "wellspring of life" (Proverbs 4:23), where you place your heart matters. Who you let rule over your life makes a huge difference in the course of your life. Samuel tried to warn the people that they would become slaves to this king, but they didn't care. They just wanted to be like everybody else.

When you give someone the power to be king, you give up that power over your life, a power that humans will eventually abuse and misuse. When you give in to an addiction like alcohol, food, porn, drugs, body image, relationships, power, popularity, money, etc. you lose control and become a slave to that object/activity whether you notice it or not. You serve that "thing" instead of God because you cannot serve two masters (Matthew 6:24).

But serving God is different than serving anything else. Serving God is choosing the light yoke, a yoke that He bears the weight in and you get to learn from the big guy that already knows everything (pretty cool huh?). Serving God is freedom. You get to lose the chains of sin and death when you are clothed with righteousness that comes from just accepting a gift that is completely free to you but came at such a high price. You get to lose the burden of working out your salvation because God has done that for you. No matter what you do, God could never love you more, and No matter what you have done, are doing and will do, God will NEVER love you less.

God created us to want to follow; that's why so many people look to others to show them what to do. In the bible, we are referred to as sheep, something that I've never really liked because of one bad lamb experience many years ago, but something I've learned to take pride in lately because I am loved by my king, my shepherd.

I belong to him ...." the One who created me. The One who loves me. The One who died for me. He will never lead me off a cliff or feed me to the wolves who stand back and wait for the moment I step out of the herd. No, they cannot devour me because my Shepherd guards, protects. He sees the path ahead. He might not show me the final destination... because He wants to enjoy the journey with me. He wants me to rest in "green pastures" and soak up the "quiet waters"... "He guides me along the right paths for his name's sake." He and I will go through valleys - dark ones where death surrounds us - but He won't lose me in there. I will "fear no evil" when I am with Him. Because everything about Him - like His rod and His staff, which are sometimes all I can see when His face is turned - gives me great comfort. He anoints me and He blesses me with an "overflowing cup." - Krissi (from Psalm 23)

God's got sweet sweet sweet plans for your life but He's not going to make you follow him.  If He did, it wouldn't be real love; it would be slavery.  But why would you want to rebel from the only one that truly has your best interest in His mind and his heart? 

We can not win this fight inside out rebel hearts so raise the white flag and surrender. Love has already won.





Tuesday, June 12, 2012

God's Will

Psalm 18

6 In my distress I called to the Lord;
I cried to my God for help.
From his temple he heard my voice;
my cry came before him, into his ears.
7 The earth trembled and quaked,
and the foundations of the mountains shook;
they trembled because he was angry.
8 Smoke rose from his nostrils;
consuming fire came from his mouth,
burning coals blazed out of it.
9 He parted the heavens and came down;
dark clouds were under his feet.
10 He mounted the cherubim and flew;
he soared on the wings of the wind.
11 He made darkness his covering, his canopy around him—
the dark rain clouds of the sky.
12 Out of the brightness of his presence clouds advanced,
with hailstones and bolts of lightning.
13 The Lord thundered from heaven;
the voice of the Most High resounded.[d]
14 He shot his arrows and scattered the enemy,
with great bolts of lightning he routed them.
15 The valleys of the sea were exposed
and the foundations of the earth laid bare
at your rebuke, Lord,
at the blast of breath from your nostrils.
16 He reached down from on high and took hold of me;
he drew me out of deep waters.
17 He rescued me from my powerful enemy,
from my foes, who were too strong for me.
18 They confronted me in the day of my disaster,
but the Lord was my support.
19 He brought me out into a spacious place;
he rescued me because he delighted in me. 

For weeks now, I have been camping out in Psalm 18, because it just blows my mind.  This image of how much God cares about his children is overwhelming.  Over and over, this passage has brought me to my knees, unable to stand because He loves me so much!

In the past, when I've been hurt, I've had this image of a stand-off God; one that knows what's going on but doesn't seem to do anything.  I know that this comes from years of waiting for God to do what I wanted him to do.  It wasn't until recently that I finally started to grasp at the idea of God's Will.  God's Will isn't God carrying out my plans.  It's a much greater plan that I could even fathom. 

Kelly <3


When my best friend died 3 years ago, I hit an all-time low.  I went crazy with my "whys" because I just couldn't grasp why God would take her from me.  I felt alone in crowded rooms, overwhelmed with pain & grief, and angry beyond comparison at the people who seemed to be moving on while I refused to move the roots that I'd buried in the land of hurt and depression.  I tried to run from God, deny His existence, and hurt Him by hurting myself and those around me with my decisions.

In the back of my mind though, I'd tell myself that "if I just knew why....", I would be able to move on.  Honestly though, there is no way I will truly ever understand why my Kell Bell isn't meeting me for a movie at the drive in, going on road trips and getting tanned while I burn this summer.  As smart as I'd like to think I am, I will never be able to understand.  I can't understand God's plan.  I can't understand what has happened, what is happening or what is going to happen.  Even if He came down from heaven tonight and whispered in my ear his plans, I could not comprehend them BECAUSE I AM NOT GOD.

See, the major difference between God's will and my will is the word in front of will.  If we could fully understand God though, what would be the point in following him? People do not follow those who know the exact same things as them. There would be no reason to seek out a God if we ourselves knew enough to be considered on an equal playing field as God. 

In Ephesians 3, Paul prayed saying "May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God" (verse 19).  Paul knew that these people, like me, would never fully understand God, but that we would be able to experience glimpses into His love for us.  It's those glimpses of his love that remind me to fight when I am having a bad day because I have a purpose.  It's God's will for me to be here 'til He calls me home.

Yes, I am ready to go to heaven.  I long to be home with God someday, in a place where I know I will finally feel like I belong, but it's not my time yet.  God has a plan, and a perfect plan at that for my life.  I don't know what it is, where it will take me or when I'll see the next move I'm supposed to take, but I do know that I want to walk in His will.  I want to be bold.  I want to risk it all and loose it all for a purpose far greater than anything I could cook up on my own. 

Daddy God, I want to be used for your will and your plans for your kingdom.
Commission My Sould O Lord and give me my purpose in Your will.




Thursday, January 12, 2012

Searching for Significance - SS Part 2

A Shocking Place - Shocking Statement's of Jesus Part 2

As part of the series "Shocking Statements" at North Point Community Church, Brent Shoemaker talked about ranking, competition and comparison, a topic that often hits a little close to home in small town America. ( http://www.northpoint.org/messages/shocking-statements-of-jesus )  As one of four daughters, I can't think of anything I did more often in my childhood than trying to one-up my sisters. If they did something, I had to do something better to prove that I was the best and try to win peoples' (....usually my parents',) approvals.

Academically, this has served as a good motivation tool. Although there's no difference between a 93 and a 100 on college transcripts, there are many classes that I have put in more effort not because I wanted to learn more, but because I refused to get a lower grade that a freshman whiz-kid or one of my friends that never ever studies. If we're honest with ourselves, we are always doing these three things because we always want to find significance in ourselves.

Going to the gym is one of those places that I always find myself struggling with ranking and comparison. I see shirtless women with layers of make-up on and their hair done perfect, and I think to myself "I'm working out harder than them." I see the marathon runner casually sprinting 10 miles and I think "I will never be able to run one mile that fast. They'd lap me in a one lap race." Depending on who is at the gym on that particular day, I usually envision myself as about average on the fitness toe-tom poll. Never the less, I see my significance based on how great I am compared to others, and I'm not the only one.

When you look in Mark 9, you will see that the disciples did this too. After traveling around to different areas, all the while Jesus performing miracles, the group arrived in Capernaum. Knowing full well what had happened on the road, Jesus asked the disciples, "What were you arguing about on the road?" (v. 33) He knew however that they had been debating amongst themselves who was the greatest.

If you think about it, it makes perfect sense. Here they had a man in there group who could perform miracles and people wanted to make him king. Then this same man kept talking about a kingdom. Why wouldn't they want to be the closest one to him? I will be honest and say that there are people in my life that I've tried really hard to get in their close-knit circle because I know they have the power to change the world and I want to have that claim to fame, not because I truly loved them. Here, the disciples were having that conversation, but they were ashamed to tell Jesus.

But, "Sitting down, Jesus called the Twelve and said "If anyone wants to be first, he must be the very last, and the servant of all." (v. 35) This is so contrary to our society today. It seems radical. Even in bible times, you know the disciples must have been somewhat confused. How could being low make one high? How could being a servant be elevating? Nothing that he was saying was making sense.

When though, was Jesus like just another king? He was born in a stable to a carpenter and his wife. He was not rich. He loved on others without expecting anything in return. And he served. If you think about who you admire most, who comes to mind? To me, these people would probably be my parents, my grandparents, soldiers, police, firefighters, nurses and my teachers. In each case, they serve others to bring them up instead of trying to crawl over people to get to the top. These people have always had time for me, to pour into me even when they're obviously running on empty themselves.

And Jesus was the perfect example of service. He didn't have a home because he was constantly moving from one place to another helping people. He knew that the greatest influence you can make is to serve and empower others. While he could have placed himself above them all, been born into a ruling family and demand all his subjects to bow down or die, he didn't.

I think what Jesus was trying to tell the disciples then, and us now, was that they were looking in the wrong place to find their significance and they were missing out on something greater because their eyes were on their own reflections instead of downwards trying to lift others up.

Because we are like sheep, often too dense to get anything the first time, Jesus went and took a child up in his arms and said to the Twelve, "Whoever welcomes one of these little children in my name welcomes me, and whoever welcomes me does not welcome me but the one who sent me."

YES! I finally did something right! I love kids! In fact, there are times when I would pay someone to let me babysit their children just to be able to be with children. While not everyone probably has that extreme of a love for kids, I think it's pretty safe to assume that most people like kids. So Jesus is telling us that welcoming kids is welcoming God and that's what will bring us greatness. Wow, I am so great!

But oh no.... not so fast. This is where putting things into context really matters. In today's society, we see kids as precious little bundles of joy, but was that what they were seen as during this period? Not hardly. As Pastor Brent pointed out in his sermon, kids in this day were not held in the value that we see them today. They were often seen as undesirable. If a woman had a baby and the father didn't want to keep it, they would "take care of it" by putting the baby outside where it was left to die or be adopted. Now being adopted, that doesn't sound so bad right... until you find out where most of these babies were going. In this time period, people could be sold into slavery and lots of times, if these kids were adopted, that's where they went, not to a loving family. Think back to the story of Moses. The government killed the innocent babies. No matter how you look at it, these children, these babies, were not looked at as highly treasured possessions. So Jesus was telling them, love those that you've placed below you to obtain greatness.

Application!

To the disciples, there's no doubt that welcoming and loving kids had to have been hard but Jesus told them, whoever welcomes them in my name welcomes me, and whoever welcomes me does not welcome me but the one who sent me (v. 37)

***Who is right underneath you that you could be serving but are missing out on because you're too busy crawling over them to try to reach greatness on your own? *** For me, I know one of those people is my little sister. This last summer, I spent so much time to fix my relationships with adults that I missed out on some really important moments with her.

***How can you serve them? Give them your time AND your attention. *** A lot of the time we try to do one of these things without the other. We can sit by someone watching movies for 3 hours but never give them our attention. Or, we tell someone we really want to know what's going on with their lives but get up and leave in 5 minutes because we have other things to do to raise ourselves up.

***How do we get significance? We already have it.*** When you think about the greatest act of service, most people would agree it's a life. That's why we have days like Veteran's day, to thank those that gave up everything for us. That's why so many people suffer from survivor’s guilt when someone else dies instead of them. There is no greater sacrifice to show one's love than with their life. And that's why you're significant. The disciples were hanging out with God, fighting over who was greatest, trying to determine their significance while the whole time Jesus was saying....You are significant. That's why I'm here, to die for you, to pay the price of your sins because I love you and I want you. You are significant. Period.

In Christ's Love,

Liza